AIRBOURNE. |Will there ever be satisfaction?|

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

"Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night."

Dover Beach-Mathew Arnold

Had fruitful shopping sprees, meeting up sessions with friends and some time to spend with my family for last week.

Thanks so much to my A3A mates for last sat's celebration at 1 baghdad street. haha. it was great, even the smashed cake. great food, cool drinks, cosy and unique atmosphere and fantastic company! On top of that, the beloved lappy case!

Thank you Anli, Weiqi, Bishan and XiuWen. You guys are the sweetest. I still miss jc life...the lethargic moments, the stress, the craze, the excitedness...everything more than and including the mere happiness that we shared...and even until now, this friendship we treasure.

Remember that time when we thought that our friendship was nothing more than just acquaintance? But Anli, can you remember the countless times when you see my mood swings? Weiqi, can you remember the only time when we quarrelled? And do you remember the time when I hugged you so tightly just before the receiving of 'A' lvl result slip? I don't even know why I was crying at that time. B4 that, for 1 mth, I've been in a state of confusion. I was lost. Maybe I just had to burst out. And you guys were there. WQ, you were shocked. I remembered. I laughed after that. It was crazy, isn't it? Bish, I can remember you hugging me though. haha. I remember we went crazy after you told me you got a bf and how we have gone mad over econs tuition. Xiuwen, you were the one that continuously printed lit notes and emailed all those prelim papers for us..you're so cute lah. Always see you with the cheeky smile. I thank you all for tolerating my nonsensical behaviour all this while. But most importantly, thank you for watching me grow, thank you for listening to my stories and thank you for asking how have i been almost every single day. Thank you.

I've been gradually feeling more comfortable with myself these 6 mths. I hope I wont commit the mistake of being the monster in my own nightmare again. I realised that it isn't fair to others if i bring forward my fear from my past mistakes and set up a glass wall when approaching anyone. How can I actually blabber my troubles and forget you have your fears too? How silly can i get?

love, cy