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Monday, November 27, 2006

NOW YOU SEE, THE 'NEW' WORLD LETS OUT ITS DEADLY SECRET.

And we thought 'new' means better.
Uh uh.
Now everything illogical turns into such a way that they are all logical, and the logical becomes illogical.
In other words, we contradict by debating and defining meanings so clearly on both ends that nothing seems certain.
You say, interpretations.
I say, a heap of mess.
Where has the faith, the one meaning gone to?
Maybe we're game for something more challenging, testing our minds to try not to falter.
Now you see why most of us think being gay and lesbian is perfectly logical, but just weird.
Now you see why everything queer becomes reasonable.
No more structure.
Everything is broken down.
It's bad, but it's good too. Everything's acceptable now.
Welcome to the new world. Soon we'll ask, "Where's order?"

Oh and then there's the problem of language too.
For instance, silence to an actor who has committed a sin is being his true self. He is able to quit his job and run away to a foreign country away from city since he has earned quite a sum of money. He is tired of human fakery. Because when he is guilty and he knows that if he talks, he will speak of deceit. There is the "vertigo and the constant hunger to be exposed" when he speaks unconsciously. He chose silence as "being", not "seeming", in order that he would no longer have to fabricate himself. He silences himself. He is finally "being" true to everyone, including himself, because he has effectively stopped pretending.
Then, by now, since he's silent, those that are close around him will gradually become silent too because they will be having communicative difficulties when speaking to him. They themselves will start to be aware of their personal uncertainties and one by one, they will become "mutes".
We'll then have to guess what each other is saying.
We'll have to fill in the gaps and try to 'hear' the silences.
Isn't that how the cold war is worked out?
Isn't that how the cooling down period when you had an argument with a friend turned out to be, that it isn't a cooling period but a period whereby you try to decipher what each other is thinking?
Silence is terrifying, but it's so real.

Is this a pessimistic entry? No. It's real. And above all, it's acceptable. It's logical. See it this way, everything impossible is now possible. There certainly are doubts and queries, but open-endedness sets in. There isn't any conclusion and any moral of the story by now. No more.

To each his conclusion. To each his best. Welcome to the new world!

love, cy