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Saturday, January 20, 2007

random musings.

I have just finished watching a drama on youtube (finally!) The show was introduced by lil and i have doubts watching it at first coz it's a show bout gangsters. and i asked her it's the 5566 show. HAHAHA. fortunately it's not. The drama's filled with highly charged actions and emotions so I guessed that's the main reason why I'm following it till the end. Feely feely. I'm watching season 2 SOON & im glad it only has 10 eps coz i dun think i want to spend too much time watching dramas. lol.
Lil said, "Why is there no Shan Zi (the guy she's obsessed with) in this world??"
and I replied, "Because this is Singapore. There's no drama mama. You wan can go migrate and fill your life with action thrillers and dangers."
She said, "ok. Im packing my bag now."

Work's rolling in as usual and last piano theory exam's coming really soon. I'm a little worried that I'm taking 6 modules this sem, including a language. But still I'm fine with them so far and I like the mods so I'm going ahead with this decision. God bless.

Went to aly's room last nite to help out with hall 9 publicity till 3+am. She msned me to ask me to come down at 12+am lah. tt busy girl. Then i was supposed to go for dance with joyce at 7pm but she was at jp. When she reached hall it was 8pm so i told her im gonna forgo it and then chatted with sherry roomie instead.

Talked to aly, adila and lil bout the career prospects of an arts grad coz I couldn't help but worry a little. Read my fren's blog tt some minister said in his speech not long ago that there is little future for lit grads. felt really disappointed and hopeless for an instant coz i was pretty concerned with the prospects even before starting out this course. Language, techniques, clarity, speed and ideas. As quoted by Dr. Kenneth Chan, "Never sacrifice clarity in terms of style." Now i'm going ahead with this little hope and my very best.

I came back home this late afternoon and the family men came home late. dad with elder, and younger came back later. Recently (meaning probably 2-3 wks ago), I realized dad usually goes out with elder on a friday night or the weekends. Either one whole afternoon or one whole night. I'm feeling weird. Like really weird. And i couldn't say anything. Or maybe i don't bother to ask coz i dun wan to be involved in it. It seems like the past again. Things are definitely picking up and elder has been to dad's office to help him with business. I don't know if mom talks to him. But months ago, when i witnessed whenever elder's out, both dad and mom will open his room door, inspect his stuffs and then mom will tidy his room willingly. They are on talking terms now even though not every single time. I feel that I should be happy about it coz I knew it's my parents' wish to 'reunite' their kinship with elder and welcome him back to the family even if they don't say it to bro and me. But the other side of me can't forget the things he did in the past. So when the corner of my left eye saw him walking towards the living room to find dad and sat on the couch, it felt really weird. This is my side of the story. I don't know about them. The thing is, I don't know why I don't want to question them.

Anyway, I'm trying to control my food intake. But today when i reached home i went on a tiny binge. haha. how ironic.

Being home is an enjoyment. Chatting with dad, mom and bro feels so good.

ok my complexion is getting worse! Both sherry and i agreed that it's the evil doing by the hall stay.

Reads: -finish up 'A Child Called It'
-'The Vicar of Wakefield'

super random i know. haha. gotta catch up with some good sleep on my '19 year old and only dependent friend'. bonne nuit!

love, cy