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Sunday, December 31, 2006

The Road I've Travelled and Will Be Travelling.

I was born in 1987 and I live with my traditional parents, a westernized younger brother and an older brother whom I haven't talk to for months. I loved my childhood days and got close to my maid who stayed with me from p1 to 6. She was my protection when I got scoldings from my elder brother. But still, she couldn't defend herself at times. I still miss her.

I was from May Primary, a run-down, neighbourhood school you've probably never heard of. It looks like a haunted house if all lights were switched off. Yet, to date, I can still picture the images of the school, of school children wearing the yellow and green uniform, the crest with its slogan on "Knowledge Lights My Way", my friends running along the corridors and playing hopscotch and zero point, buying ice-cream at 20 cents, all of us going to the bookshop to purchase cute little stationeries, seeing the boys catching tadpoles at the ponds and some falling into it, and the fearsome vice-principal with two canes tricking the naughty kids to choose the thin cane over the thick cane. The only time I was punished in front of the school was because my frens and I played this 'Follow-me' game and we crossed the road. Unfortunately, the vice-principal saw it and so we were made to skip classes and stand outside her office. I was forced into Chinese Dance and had leg raised 180 degrees up high. I loved Art Club. Once, I got my fren into trouble coz she and my other fren had a dispute. I gave him her number, which then led into a quarrel between both sides of the parents. That day was the only day Ms. Cardoza spoke so fiercely to me. Now, May Primary has merged with Boon Keng Primary to form Farrer Park Primary. Earlier, Towner Primary and Cambridge Primary consecutively merge with May Primary and that was how I got to know more friends, some of which I still keep in touch with. The current location of the Old May Primary is transformed into May Adventure Camp, which I don't really think it looks adventurous at all. I remember Mr. Idris, the former principal who allowed the students who made into EM1 choose a book from his bookshelves in his office. I chose Moby Dick and have yet to finish it. Then, Ms. Oehlers took over the school and I graduated.

I got into Bendemeer Secondary coz it was my 2nd choice. 6 more points for my PSLE results and I would have gotten into Cedar Girls. Most said it's a school of ah lians and ah bengs. That year when I entered, my elder brother graduated. A lot of his teachers and my seniors knew him coz he was the head prefect of the school. Somehow, I didn't seem to enjoy the popularity under his name. Bendemeer shifted to its new premises 2 yrs ago before I entered. To me, Bendemeer's my favourite school, probably because I could make things happen there and because it was witnessed by many others. It was, as quoted from my 4E1 tutor, Mr. Benedict Tan, "a humble neighbourhood school along the expressway, a kampong school with simple people". For the 1st 2 years, I saw fights between the ah bengs. Even 1 ah lian was involved in one of the fights. I was extremely obedient in Sec 1 and I was oblivious to a lot of issues. My life revolved only around family and studies. Then came Sec 2 when I became more outgoing. I had the best time of my life in the company of great friends and tutors, one of whom was my form teacher, Ms. Tan Mei Ying, whom now I call her as a friend and an advisor. I found my best friend and my good old pals in 2E4 and I moved on to 3E1 and 4E1. I was in a triple science class, and obviously, I couldn't manage it. As much as I find Science amazing, I couldn't score it. So I dropped Bio when the new bio teacher in sec 4 told me that she think I can handle it well. I met my 2nd best class then. I got the best in Art for sec 1 and 2, but I couldn't continue pursuing Art because it was not offered for the express stream students. I became the Company Leader for Girl Guides and was in the prefectorial board. I got a chance to represent my school and be a nominee in High 5 community development council (youth volunteerism). I met some of the smartest and most ambitious youths there who had brilliant hearts and minds. And then with luck I got selected to be 1 out of 20 youths to be a youth ambassador for an exchange trip to Melbourne. I experienced funny and awkward moments when my friends in Bendemeer told me my crushes did this and that, and all i did was to avoid and pretend that i am unaware. For my sec school years, I studied hard and I played hard, and the rewards showed. I quote Bendemeer's motto, it says "From Each His Best". Indeed, from each his best.

I went into NYJC, another neighbourhood school. It was then that I realised there's nothing wrong if i'm in a neighbourhood school. I'd rather be here where I could play, have fun and do well in studies at the same time. It was so much more relaxing. NYJC was in the process of rebuilding to its new blocks when I was 'recruited'. During my J1 yrs, I could still see the old canteen. J2 year came and there was the new canteen, new sports facilities, new science blocks etc. I loved the creative interior decor of the classrooms. However, JC education system was a killer for me. For 2 yrs, my grades were messy. Those years were the years I became most stressful and most aware of myself. I had awesome tutors and I was thankful to be in an Arts class where I felt comfortable with myself and the languages that we speak (i.e not every single thing in perfect English). I met another bunch of good female friends and I'm glad they pulled me through the rough times. By the time in JC, I felt less significant and I was doing little things no one in the school seem to take notice of. I joined the Symphonic Band and felt limited to things that I can say because I knew everyone in there had more experience than me. I was a newbie. I met my first love there while he graduated and I had a great time when I was with him. I'm glad I have re-accepted him and invited this friendship back. Band took quite a lot of my time. Nearing the Concerts' days and SYF, I still can remember we practice till 10pm. The late night walks on the pitch-dark track out of campus, the lunch we had with our conductor in the canteen and the suppers we had at S11, the cushion corner we all did our hw in the band room, or to sleep, or just to skip lessons were part and parcel of Band days. I met friends there who shared an intimacy with me. Something language was not part of. It was the delicacy of music. Music created the bond among us. On the day of the results, I asked my tutors "Can I go to Uni with this kind of results? Can I?" and they all said they really don't know.

I came into NTU through a written test and an interview with Dr. Kenneth Chan. He's now the newly appointed Dean of the English division. I received a phonecall for the interview by the English division's secretary, Priya, in the toilet of ICA building where I was working. I was slacking and washing my hands when I received it and exclaimed "WHAT?!?! OHHHH MY GOODNESS!" And then, my only wish at that time came true. I was so lucky I got into a local uni. My mom couldn't believe it that i could make it into the school with my grades. No one believed it. Not even me. Sometimes, I still wonder if I have ever made my tutors or NYJC proud, but at the end of the day, I know there's no answer to it if I keep questioning myself. Semester 1 has passed. I made new friends and I owe it all to HSS FOC 06 where I met my uni mates there. At times I am really thankful because Uni would have been different without them. The late night suppers, talks, sleepovers, just hanging out and chilling around canteen 2 and JP etc were all good and I hope there's more to come. I almost met my 2nd love but I guess it wasn't the right time. But I had my friends to push me on even though they all know I was more disappointed with loving this time round. Even if I don't say it and let things pass, we all know something better lies ahead of us. I questioned my capability bout my studies and for the first time, I thought I made a huge mistake by choosing my major. I got so messed up and confused when my friend put me down through criticisms. She pulled me up after, and I tried harder to do my assignments. I know it's a matter of time when I will be able to gradually lift up my own level of faith. I got my Sem 1 results. Compared to others, it may seem average. But I remember what I've been through and I give myself a pat and say "Let's give it another shot." And soon, another new semester is about to reach into my hands.

Along the way, friends gave me words of wisdom, hope and love. And as I reach out to the world of 07, I will continue to strive my best without forgetting my roots and the love I have received. Sometimes, there are a stretch of consecutive disappointments coz my friends seemed to have forgot bout my existence. Sometimes, I try so hard but I don't seem to have the genes or talent at doing certain things. But if, if I still like what I'm doing and I know it's worthwhile, then I know I'm making the right choices in life.

This is the road I have travelled and am travelling. What's yours?

love, cy

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Heather Martin - When Are You Coming Home

You were almost sixteen when I came into the world.
Mom and Dad had you first then 3 more boys I'm the baby girl.
I sure have a lot to look up to in you, you're really smart and funny with a big heart too.
After one year of college you knew what you had to do.
It's just like you wanting to help with the war.
So you joined the army when I was only 4.
This time of year we talk of big plans but you're over seas in some distant land.
You can't be here for Christmas, I don't understand.
Chorus:
When are you coming home, Shaun?
When are you coming home?!
We lit up the house like we always do but it doesn't seem bright 'cause we can't have you.
In my prayers I ask God to keep you safe.
And I'm trying to be really brave.
Tell me that the fighting's through.
Come home!
I really miss you.

It's hard to enjoy the holidays without you.
But we're so proud of you and all the red white and blue.
Remember that Jesus is your best friend,
And someday our families will be together again.
Wow! You know we'll have a great big party then.

Chorus

I want to show you how tall I've grown and introduce you to my new friends at school.
Maybe we could go and get some ice cream together but I really don't care what we do.

Chorus

"6 year old Heather Martin sings a song that her mother wrote for her Brother Shaun who is serving in Iraq. The song is written from Heather's point of view."

It's so pitiful tt's why we love the lyrics and her so much huh?

But look at the comments for this video. It's pathetic that people are fighting over the simple existence of love. They fight over faith and religion, and they fail to realise that love's always the winner. It doesn't matter where you come from and who you stand up for just because you are a citizen. Sometimes, messages are meant to be kept simple until one day, now, people have disputes because of the colour of your skin or because of the fact that the world is now a liberal 'haven' or because of God-knows-what.

She's just a kid. And those disturbing comments have made me become aware of the video! I start to notice and think who and what she is trying to speak to b4 she sings, her expressions and her gestures...whether it is all fakery or not. Her mom even taught her to sing with actions for the other performances. YES, and her mom plans to sell the song. We don't want her crocodile tears.

Youtube owners should put a stop to the posting of comments. It's getting carried away. Too far. Too much. This is entertainment, and im very sure everyone's getting 5 min of fame now, but this ain't turning out well. Not at all. The effects are killing morals.

love, cy

Monday, December 25, 2006

MERRY XMAS!!!

Hope you guys had an awesome xmas eve and have a smashing xmas celebration later on! For me, Santa blessed me with one of the most fantastic dreams I ever had in my life last night. I shan't elaborate the details of my dream coz it was 11 hrs of slp with occasional hiccups. To sum it up, it was a magical fantasy, an adventure with mythical creatures and the dream was similar to one of the most brilliant stories Enid Blyton ever wrote. Imagine the pomp, the mystical, the colours so rich like never before and the dangerous journey so magical that I wouldn't even notice its dangers. What and how the characters look like and dress themselves up with were gorgeous. The storyline was a little jumpy but it can be made into a story that i bet children will love. Call it fairytale, childlike, kiddish tale, but to me, it was simply perfect.

Went out with my family earlier for the whole day. Bro got himself a lappy, dad & mom got themselves a fan and some shorts and I got myself underthings. HAHA. Vivo was sooo crowded I kinda dislike it. So we left home at bout 9+ and i was in time to watch 'love actually'! i love the last 15min of the show. it was exaggerated, so exaggerated that the producer managed to convey his msg successfully! Christmasy show. I like!

I am feeling fat these few days. There's proof! My tummy is getting more obvious...my face is rounder...and my bottoms are getting tighter. HAHAHA. know why?

FOOD LIKE THIS MAKES ME GO LALAAA~
My mouth cant stop chewing. It doesn't get tired at all. I don't accept any double chins!!! DOUBLE CHINS ARE A NIGHTMARE!

One day, I hope I can decorate my house sth similar to this..

.

Amazing huh! What a beauty...

ok lah. i go rest liao. i cannot peek at santa leh. later he know then i no present liao. happy hugs!

love, cy

Friday, December 22, 2006

TEMPORARILY HANDICAPPED

i must confess i haven't been watching a gd local chinese drama serial for ages. but i was watching 'a million treasures' just now on channel 8 at 9pm and there's this scenario where felicia chin's (i forgot her character's name) dad came back from jail coz he committed the crime of beating up his own wife to death. felicia's hatred was so obvious but pitied her father coz he had nowhere else to stay. then, when felicia's gramp found out tt her father was in the house, he drove him away by pouring a hot cup of coffee on him. The dad then used his bare hands to knock gramp's head on the cupboard for a couple of times and felicia immed. shouted at him. felicia said to her close fren, "He can hit whoever he wants at anytime of the day. But i'm not a 10 yr old kid anymore."

while i was watching this, i shouted "WA LAU EH!" when her gramp got hit on his head. My heartbeats were racing. I guess I still have that trauma i had in the past. It was so real I couldn't believe singapore's chinese drama serial made me shouted that.

Anw, i havent been blogging coz of my hand. Havent had a gd night's sleep for days coz my arm aches badly whenever i move it. ytd, i went for proper TCM consultation. i had 3 docs (excluding the chief) examining my forearm (either all of them seemed super free or they want confirmation). They suspected I fractured my bones. So im on bandage and have 5 tablets to consume twice for 2 days. Tml, i will have to go back there to visit the doc again. If told to do xray, i will have to go to tan tock seng hospital for checkup. and in the mid afternoon i will be having 2 hrs of piano theory. so in a rush! coz i havent do my hw yet! i want to bring my lappy for servicing but i dunno how im gonna do that tml. and i've waited for 2 mths! qi si wo.

haish. i realised hands, arms, joints and legs and wadeva tt's part of ur body are sooooo precious. how to play and teach piano liddat. how to exercise liddat. how to play liddat.

all i ask for is to be healthy and to be able to sleep well.
ok back to hw!

Santa gramp gramp, pls sprinkle some magical healing dust on me so i can recover at once and go out and play with my frens and family!

love, cy

Thursday, December 14, 2006

YJ: "You're up early. Did you wait long for me last night?"
JE: "Why are you always like that?"
YJ: "What do you mean?"
JE: "Do you really think I'm an idiot? You think you can mistreat me like that?"
YJ: "What do you mean?"
JE: "Why do you make me wait?"
YJ: "You should have just left if I wasn't coming...Did you wait like an idiot again?"
JE: "I'm an idiot? Who's the idiot here? You're the idiot. Why can't you tell Hye-won that you like her?"
YJ: "What?"
JE: "I know everything. You like Hye-won."
YJ: "What?"
JE: "And like a stupid fool, you can't even tell her."
YJ: "Hey, don't talk about something you know nothing about. And what's it to you? Why do I have to hear from the likes of you?"
JE: "The likes of me?"
YJ: "Yes, the likes of you. You really think you're my wife? Who do you think you are? Who are you to meddle in my business? Don't even go there. You mean nothing to me."
JE: "That's right. There's nothing between us. So why do you make it so hard for me?"
YJ: "Who's making what hard for you? Who? Me? How did I make it hard for you?"
JE: "You keep making me wait! And this is not the first time. I waited all day for you...At the restaurant too...I waited until they told me they were closing. I waited...I waited for you at home too. When is he coming home? He is coming, isn't he? He'll come soon...he'll come. I waited all night like that. Why do I have to be the one always waiting?"
YJ: "So who told you to wait? Who?"
JE: "Fine. I'll never wait again. I'll never wait for you again."
YJ: "Fine. Don't wait for me. Don't get the wrong idea. You're nothing to me, you know that?"
JE: "Yes, I do. I know I mean nothing to you. And from now on...you mean nothing to me."

-background plays melancholic music. JE wipes her tears. YJ is shocked.-

2 lovers. endless misunderstandings. obstacles not cleared, game over. It's tiring to wait. It's even more tiring to wait silently.

It's better to thrash it out and make a final decision, even if it's the answer you do not want to hear. Or do you want me to be gone, gone far away from you, so we'll both lead our better lives? Tell me now, coz i'll really leave soon. And even if the heart's sour, i'll make sure i won't regret.

There's no more coming back.

love, cy

One word i'm feeling right now: CHUI.
haha. super chui.

ytd evening i went out with lil to shop. after, she came over my hall to sleep. Sherry was in the room too! Rare night. rare night. haha. so lil slept at 1+am, while i watched a show and read a mag b4 slping at the desk at 3+am. den both of us, as HSS sports-subcommers, had to wake up at 6.30am to prepare for ISG netball matches which start today.

Had a heavy breakfast. I was drinking h20 (with ice! thank goodness!) under the hot sun. 1st match-NIE thrashed EEE. The empire told us "NIE din give them a chance at all. They're so evil, and they're gonna become TEACHERS." Had futsal training for the longest time ever. from 10+am to 2pm. And now my feet and legs really ache. Became tanner than b4 again. 2nd match-WKWSCI won MSE (i think it's MSE). Lil had to leave early. and i was so exhausted so i went back to hall to rest as well. And now the rain is pouring!

I can't believe tml is futsal match alr leh. Gloves needed for goalie. Goalie or defender? I still dunno my position. On the day of the match, we'll decide. Tml.

I'm sooooo chui now i'm going to cook tom yam cup noodles and 'pamper' myself. HAHAHA.
LACK OF SLEEP ARHHHH!!! i need yoko yoko.

love, cy

All you have to do to win, is to rise each time you fall.

http://www.The-Race-Movie.com

love, cy

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

"When you want to protect someone...
It means you like that person, right?

You protect Kang Hye-Won
I'm...
I'm going to protect you."

-Han Ji-Eun, Full House

love, cy

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

The heart beats at the wrong place.

My heart has been belonging to where it shouldn't be for quite some time.
And i will not admit it.
It isn't regarded of any significance anymore. This i know.
For God's sake, when will this stop?

ARGHHH!

Why is foolishness not leaving me?

This is getting all silly once again, but i could only thank you because I realized how dumb i can get.

love, cy

THANK GOODNESS.

I left my hostel's keys in the door lock while i was having futsal training for 2hrs.
Thank the supreme one above me to safeguard this room and my belongings while i was not around.
Thanks to the hall aunty for giving me this room on the freaking 6TH FLOOR and the BONUS that block 47 is situated on a hill so no thief would come all the way up to steal my stuff, esp at this time when there are a lot of construction workers. (no offense though.)

It happened twice. For the 1st, which happened a few mths ago, I was slping throughout the night leaving the door unlocked.

PHEW.
I'M SAVED.

love, cy

Saturday, December 09, 2006

A loved one used to tell me that my thought processes go nowhere.

I found out it's true.
Reflections that have no conclusions doesn't necessarily mean it goes to waste, it just means that you haven't found a way out yet.
And usually, I always end up in such situations.
Does this mean I have not searched hard enough for the solutions?
Haish.

Anyway, I'm exhausted today. Later.

lowchongying, you can do better than that.

love, cy

Friday, December 08, 2006

"Everyone who goes to 2046 has the same intent
To recapture their lost memories
Because in 2046, nothing ever changes
Nobody can be sure that this is true
Because nobody who goes there...
...has ever come back
Except for me
Because I do need to change."

Wong Kar-wai on the intention behind the film: "The film is about a person who wants to change and about promises... You shouldn't see 2046 as a sequel to In the Mood for Love. It's very different [...] The character played by Tony Leung isn't the same. In fact I realized that the more I try to distance myself from my ideas the more I get closer to them. You have to deal with that; the past and memories always end up catching up with you. That's the message of the film."

Memoirs are NOT just memoirs.

love, cy

Thursday, December 07, 2006

'1 Litre of Tears'.

I didn't want to watch it at first becoz I know it's a very emotional jap drama serial with no good ending. Then, I decided to start watching coz I needed entertainment during the examination period. I realized it wasn't all entertainment.

As the name suggests, 1 litre of tears. My tears flowed. They're not controllable. What's more is that I found it really hard to swallow my saliva as I watched the final episode.

I know it might be too feely feely for some of you. It's true that we find mushy and emotional dramas too cliche. At least, it touches your heart, doesn't it? It helps to tell or show what we might never tell others all our lives. The fortitude to live on, forever, through Aya's beliefs.

It doesn't matter if you fall, so long as you stand up again, even in the face of death.
Treasure and cherish your youth. And have no regrets.
Cliche, but real.

love, cy

He was the inspiration that made their lives extraordinary.

"When charismatic English professor John Keating (Oscar nominee Robin Williams) arrives at a strict boys academy, his unconventional teaching methods breathe new life into the curriculum steeped in tradition. With his wit and wisdom, Keating inspires his students to pursue individual passions and make their lives extraordinary. DEAD POETS SOCIETY, one of the most compelling box office triumphs in recent years, touched audiences and critics alike with its brilliant acting, uplifting story and superb filmmaking!"

The story is similar to the movie Les Choriste, but this is more of mature content. The climax was near towards the end of the film and it was rather unexpected. The ending was fantastic in such a way that it hits you right in the face of reality. There is the exploration of the struggle to break free from the conforming family, or society. Literature is not only for the women and gays. It's for everyone who has his or her own passions and the wish for them to be accepted no matter whether they are silly or not. Poetry, or Literature, is the reason we are living for. It transcends all times and verses live on forever.

"Let the power for play goes on and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?"

love, cy

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

It took me 9 months.

Today,
I gathered enough courage
to unblock him.

love, cy

oh man. Lack of Sleep. Muscles ache a little. And probably hangover.

so I woke Aly up at 8+am, told WL and BS i couldn't go for frisbee training, went back to sleep and Elizabeth woke me up at 4pm.

Body's clock is turned upside down.
Gotta get it back on the right track.

I'll go bathe now when the sun is about to set in 2+hrs time, FOR THE LAST TIME during this holiday.

love, cy

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Okay it might sound like i'm a tad too old to enjoy fairy-tale musicals and hyper teen movies...
BUT,

I RECOMMEND YOU TO WATCH 'HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL'!!!!!

I danced along with the music and everything in the movie. hahaha. try picturing that if you want to. I felt sad with it, I felt joyous and crazy with it. CHICK LIT! hahaha. who cares!

I feel so good now. HAHA.

love, cy

Saturday, December 02, 2006

SO HAPPY TOGETHER! 1.12.06

Met up with my close girlfriends from bendemeer, including ms tan, who used to be my sec 2 form teacher and geo teacher! it was a pity chris and ric couldn't make it. She's a part of this closely-knitted friendship since we were sec 3. All of us, including her, played bball tgt after the end of our lessons, stayed in school till night just to talk, went rollerblading and cycling, went ice-skating, went for xmas party and celebration and it's here again this year...those memories...ahhh...=D looking forward to meeting all of them, including the guys this xmas celebration!
OKIE DOKIE! I'll let the pictures do the talking!

PIANO CONCERT'S REHEARSAL! 2.12.06

din take photos of the more mature performers coz some came later, and it's more exciting to take photos of the young! don't u think so? haha. ok la. nuff with my paedophilia acts. I reckon Vanessa, my emcee partner, got bored of me saying "justin is soo adorable". but he is! he yawned so loudly after one of the girls sang her 1st piece. HAHAHA. and he only learned piano for 3 months! and his dad is so muscular. okok. enuff. I was so tired too. lack of slp. kept yawning my way throughout. and the director of Awards Music School-the school i teach piano part-time at east coast, called to ask if i could relief teach another boy for 3 wks early in the morn on sundays. I wanted to, then mom and dad asked mi to think thru coz i might b exhausted, so i rejected.

I was pretty glad with the performance coz i only had 2 days to practise piano after coming back home. Oh and I got a certificate for participation but what's more important is I got a cute mug from ms tan, my piano tutor! A MUG WITH LID AND A TINY SPOON! FINALLY! I CAN BRING IT TO MY HOSTEL WITHOUT HAVING TO WORRY BOUT ANTS CRAWLING INTO THE MUG!

gonna head back to hall tml evening.
Things to do when i'm in hall till friday:
sem 2 registration.
ISG trainings.
do piano theory papers.
finish 'In the Mood for Love', '2046', 'High School Musical', 'l'enfant' and 'Dead Poets Society' by this coming thurs.
clean & tidy room.
read books.
continue watching '1 litre of tears'.
more outings in the afternoons and evenings! =)))

love, cy

Friday, December 01, 2006

HELLO, PLAYTIME! I SMELL YOU!

Since this darling of mine COMPLAINED my blog is full of philosophical writing and seriously lack photos, ta da! sweetie, I've satisfied your wish. hahahaha.

I probably gained 2kg after indulging myself with a main course and a slice of chocolate banana cake (double the size of royal chocolate cake) RIGHT AFTER EXAMS! well well, 1st sem's over and 2nd sem's gonna start in the blink of an eye. And 1st sem was exhaustive. Get a grip and pull up your socks, lowchongying!!!

Newae, exams aside!
Went to pageone with jc after eating. It's like kinokuniya. And i bought the Qu'ran, Holy Bible and Buddhist teachings. Please dun say I'm mad. I wanted to do this all along, to better understand all religions. I'm an agnostic, and Hope said I might still be an agnostic after reading all this. My purpose when buying these books are to learn the values of life of these religious teachings, to reflect and see the teachings as encouragement and guidance, and not to find that God exists. I can't feel God, and if I can, that's good. But if I can't, that's fine for me too. Will i confuse myself and end up contradicting my thoughts? I hope not. I bought the 3 at the same time coz if I read one book, for instance, the Holy Bible first, I might be bias when I read other religious teachings after that. I don't want to hold any prejudice for other religions and so I bought all 3. Will take them in slowly. Jaycie was so funny! She's quite a devout Buddhist and she supports me reading all 3. She said some people don't even know who they're praying to and just follow suit, praying "Bao you wo shun shun li li!" She felt tt's pointless.

Today, I woke up at 4pm. HAHAHAHA. -faints- yes. 4pm. I woke up and went back to slp, twice. I dreamt bout horse riding! It wasn't romantic and everything. We were fighting bull dogs as big as horses. The horse I was riding on had its head bigger than its body. Then, when it approached a bull dog, it said "MOOO~" and it sat like how a dog would. And I fell! Wad kind of a horse says "MOO~"??!!! So, we were running away from the evil forces of my fren's husband. You see, she was forced into a marriage and that husband of hers look as ugly and monstrous as an enemy of Gandalf. He was brutal and murderous! So, we were riding on those cowish-horses to this great wizard, to find shelter and seek help from him. And then, I woke up. Yup. That's it.

And so I spent the day watching a drama serial in youtube. I've been so attached to youtube since living in hostel. Can you imagine?! That's my only source of entertainment. I have to get attached to it.
And I just finished writing the emcee script for this sat's piano concert. I'll have to be the main emcee, as well as perform a memorized piece. dreads. 1st time i'm memorizing a piece. my memory is always failing me. and i've only 2 days to practise my piece and write the script.

I'll be heading back to hall on this Sunday Night after EXAMS! haish. I tot i'd be able to spend more time at home. But it's ok la. I laze around at home alot and I feel bad bout it. Next week onwards, I'll be having trainings everyday. Futsal and frisbee trainings are held every alternate day, so it means training every single day till the competition! THAT MEANS I WILL GET JELLY LEGS, JELLY ARMS AND JELLY BODY! THAT ALSO MEANS I WILL SHED THE FATS I GOT OVER THESE 2 MONTHS! WAHAHAHA!!!
I bought a hula hoop at Toys R Us last weekend after clearing 3 of my papers. I couldn't stand sitting at a corner of the room everyday eating, slping, watching tv, studying and daydreaming right at that corner for 10+hrs per day so i bought it. INDOOR EXERCISING! see. no lazing around. HULA HOOPING IS FUN!!! JELLY BODY, HERE I COME!!!

I'm looking forward to this holiday! Outings, gatherings, socializing, christmas, shoppings, glorious food, reading, reflections, family, sports, concerts, being able to daydream, acceptance and a new start! have to clear some stuffs too, like registration of sem 2 mods, clean the hostel room with roomie and ya da ya da.

SCHOOL'S OUT, HOLIDAY'S ARE IN!
SWEET AIR! :D

to darling weiqi: HANG IN THERE ok! U'll be able to smell freedom on the 5th! Best of luck, sweetheart! I'll pray for you.

love, cy