AIRBOURNE. |Will there ever be satisfaction?|

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Before It's Too Late

I will miss my room. 47-06-906.
I wonder if I'll climb all the way up to visit you again,
just like what i did for my old house when i was 9.

till then, I'm still with you,
especially so when the night is silent
and when the night lamps are glowing
amber in colour.
(:

love, cy

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

shiat. dr. d said the essays are disgraceful though some are good.
now im dead meat.

coz i couldn't sleep, last night.
next week will be worse.

haish.

love, cy

Fantasy

I wonder why Dr. D told us Sir Walter Scott's 500 pages of 'Ivanhoe' is like the ancient 'Harry Potter'. 'Ivanhoe' talks much bout the conflicts between the Saxons and Normans in Old England, and as much as Scott suggests chivalry, his notion of chivalry and aventure is built upon the idea of Romanticism. Meaning, 'Ivanhoe' is written in the 19th century based on certain historical happenings in the 12th century. So, why the similarity to 'Harry Potter'?

The latter is totally a fiction, and i think it inspires greater imagination! I so heart the idea of living in fantasy. (: Who wouldn't love the settings in 'Harry Potter', and the adventures of going to school by 9 3/4 train, having PE lessons with flying broomsticks, and dining tables lay with tonnes of glorious food and perfect orange candle lightings and so much more amidst the frightful events, some crazy tutors and mysterious locked doors. Who wouldn't love the school and uniforms, TELL ME?!?!?!
oh no. now i have to confess that i have a thing for school films, novels etc etc. anything to do with school. Yet nothing to do with the schools i was and am in.

Dr. D, I understand what you mean when you say you don't really like Rowling's works. But why is there no room more for fantasy? Or when you mean fantasy, you love the extremes, like Blake's works? I think Blake's cool, but at the same time crazy.

Anyhoos, I will hear more from you tml. No, in 7 hrs time.

Dr. D, how i wish you were Dumbledore.

love, cy

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

oooooooo. i love his works.

love, cy

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Being Silly

talking about scandals, one of my frens is two-timing another classmate of mine now and im totally against him doing that. so I've been going around asking everyone what will their reactions be if one of their frens does that. all told me they will not bother much about it, becoz their friend (put in my context) who is my friend, is not so close to me. here i am acting like some innocent child, being oblivious to how scandalous and immoral such things are. who am i to care about them? the ppl involved are not even worried. one is a party goer, the other is a two-timer who told me that he has too much love. what bullshit?

i came to realize that i pity his present girlfriend. as told by that male fren of mine, his current gf is the one who loves him the most. they broke up because long time ago, he was two-timing, so he ditched her. then he tried to woo her again for 1 yr after realizing tt she was the best for him. now, they're tgt. for a long time, he didn't stray. and now, he's doing this to her again.

i came to realize that i pity someone whom i will probably never know.

he asked me, "what is love?"
I don't know. I only know love should be this way and shouldn't be that way. I live by my own set of principles in this thing called love. so i am in no right to tell anyone what's love, because i told him, "im the one who got dumped."

he told me men are jerks, don't trust them. after, he said that depends. hit on the same frequency, give it a try, then fly off together. as if it's so easy. fly off, then what happens?
i told him, "by doing that, you are a jerk already. you shouldn't be the one telling me this, right?"

i know im mean. maybe females work like that. they start with their ideal imagination of a relationship; they got hit by a couple of times; they got numbed. then they carry on thinking about a perfect partner, just like back to round one. but this time, they probably won't find the one anymore.

sometimes, we want things that are so simple, yet that seems so tough for our opposites to grasp. have you wondered why is it tough for them, or because the problem here is that it's not even tough?

love, cy

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

hello blog i miss you. *testing whether I am able to post an entry today. for Mr Malcolm Tan.*

bye bye!

love, cy

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Before Heading Back to Hall

Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver...*can you feel the urgency tonight?* says:
yep..bye bye chong ying
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver...*can you feel the urgency tonight?* says:
i need to press on with 105!
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver...*can you feel the urgency tonight?* says:
then i'll read your oscar wilde
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver...*can you feel the urgency tonight?* says:
i'm sure you'll get an oscar for it
*goes offline*

HAHAHA! Presentation on 'The Importance of Being Earnest' tml. Plus submission of Essay 1 for 105. 9pm. and still not ready to leave for hall.

love, cy

Friday, March 09, 2007

The Littlest Things Make Me Smile

[9.45am] New Aunty cleaner for 6th floor
"Aunty! 我可以进来冲凉吗?"
"可以, 可以! 走路小心哦!"

[8.25pm] Stall holder Aunty
"Aunty, 谢谢你啊！"
"哦，不客气！你[皮肤]变得好白哦!"
"哈哈，对咯！好久没运动了!"

[8.30pm] Neighbour
"Hello! You look so stressed!"
"Haha...ya lor ya lor. A lot of work to be done. Just had presentation."
"Oh! How was it?"
"Okay ba."
"Ohh...加油, 加油!"

[1.00am] Lit mate
*Handphone beep* "bla bla bla...Happy Sister's Day!"
"Happy Happy Day! Mua! I am doing essay when suddenly a cockroach appeared! I dunno where it went!!!"
*Handphone rings* "Is it a flying cockroach?!?! How big?!"
"What are you doing at this time?!"
"Disturbing my roomie (also my other lit mate)..."
"做功课啦! 105 dun need to do huh!"
*broke into a chinese conversation, to which Faith speaks Mandarin with an English accent*
"我受不了了! 不要讲华语! 很难听啊!"
"我的华语说得很好嘛!"
"不要再说了! 去做功课啦!"
"好好, 拜拜!"
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MSN [1.10am]
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver... says:
hey hey
MISS MUSE composing. says:
做功课啊！
MISS MUSE composing. says:
HAHA
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver... says:
尊命
MISS MUSE composing. says:
hahaha
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver... says:
再见了，我现在去忙我的作文
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver... says:
你好好的加油！
MISS MUSE composing. says:
whoahahaha. hao hao!
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver... says:
我爱你、
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver... says:
在为你祈祷
MISS MUSE composing. says:
好恶心啊, 可是我喜欢!
MISS MUSE composing. says:
一起加油吧!
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver... says:
好！我相信我们能做到！我们一起怒力！
Faith the Mini Cooper S Driver... says:
拜拜
MISS MUSE composing. says:
bye!

Eating Ben & Jerry's a few days ago with Faith and Simin at 'The Sun' at 1+am was beautiful. Faith's a devout Christian, so the time when she said "whenever I pray, I dunno why but i'll think of you", or when I complained to her about the workload and she said "oh dear. I just prayed for you yesterday afternoon." or when she says "I'll pray for you", I know she will. Or maybe because her health is not so good, that's why I appreciate her prayers a lot.

"我也在为你祈祷!"

*smiles*
back to 105 essay.

love, cy

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

残了残了，我好像爱上阿猛了。

love, cy

Monday, March 05, 2007

Within the Four Walls of the Cubicle

The Nigeria waterfall splashed harshly on her skin. Seconds ticked by.

The room...the intimacy...

(the lingering of the song at the back of her head)
*If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...*

The water was still running, hitting hard on her tender skin. She was stripped down to her nakedness. Her truest self within the four walls of this cubicle.

Was it the foam that blurred her eyes? Sweet-smelling, attractive, sensual, yet it could have pricked her eyes.

"Hai!"

It was her mouth, but she was astonished by her own sigh amidst the splashing of water. She thought it unnecessary. It should be like the soap. It created troubles, but once cleansed by water, nothing remains. The sight is now clear.

But what if the water stopped flowing? How will she be able to cleanse herself? Or is this just a repetitive cycle? Water, foam, water. The more you scrub your skin with foam, the more the amount of foam. The more you scrub your skin with attractive but dangerous deals, the more the troubles and problems.

She stepped out of the cubicle in her clean clothes. She left the toilet with her eyes still sore. Damn those new contact lenses. And all is kept within the four walls of that puny cubicle.

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages."
-As You Like It by William Shakespeare

love, cy

ACT 1 SCENE 1
Girl A: "Do you know what your problem is? When the girl takes the initiative, the guy doesn't appreciate her."
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Girl B: "Is someone like me not worthy of being appreciated?"

ACT 1 SCENE 2
Girl B: "Why? On your basketball court, I'm always like an idiot abandoned on the side. In your eyes, I can't see my existence. Or maybe because I'm the one who took the initiative, you take me for granted."

Guy C: "I don't understand. Did I do something wrong? I need to go play [in the competition now]."

ACT 1 SCENE 3
Guy C: "Why do you girls have so many weird ideas?"
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Girl B: "but because...I'm tired of always being the one to take the initiative...Instead of me feeling insecure and warily guarding this relationship...why not...?"
Guy C: "No why not...I want us to be together...If I initiate, then you won't be tired. Like I initiate hugging you, initiate calling you, initiate picking you up, initiate."

- '恶魔在身边'

Labels: because of the last sentence, things worked out fine.

love, cy

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Everything Under the Sun

getting ready to take on my final theory exam this coming sat. i just got back my internal exam results. D for distinction. yay! budden it's becoz there were 2 or 3 questions which were taken from my practice papers. -___- i wish the coming exam will be okay for me as well. i remembered last yr i got a merit for internal, but the actual exam i got a pass. 3 marks away from a merit. kinda disappointing for my tutor and I. oh tutor approached me to teach in Cristofori so I'm thinking this coming hols, i might change to teach part-time from Awards Music School at East Coast to Cristofori! Yayyy! And further my piano education too!

Seems like there are tonnes of activities this coming sat. NTU Open house, piano theory exam, Pat's bdae celebration and ny band reunion dinner. Now I dunno if i'm needed during the Open house as a certified ambassador, and if so, I think Prof Gertrude is prob gonna kill me becoz I need to leave 12. that means only 2 hrs of work. hoho.

this is my french tutor, Yannick. mom asked me why 'tou pai'. ok la mom, next time i take one personal photo with him, alrightey? Did i mention that he's 40 and a charismatic bachelor? *beams*
When Quigley comes back, I make sure im gonna take a pic of him. HOHOHO. Havent attended any of Bede Scott's aka Orlando Bloom lectures or tutorials yet, so that can wait.

Meet my new boyfriend. You can call him Soldier, Intruder, Alien or Whitey. He sent me to school. I asked him, "Are you from NTU?" and he replied, "No, I'm from another planet." That was how we tied the knot. Mysterious. I like.

When we were young...that's my brother. HAHAHA. funny shite. he looks like Frankenstein. And i looked so lovely...why now become liddat.

HAHAHAHAHA! my cousins and moi! bro looks like a monk, and the one in front of him...cousin Jan is currently in RJ. smarty nerdy look eh. Right side of me is his sis, Leanne. Tactful in the biz industry and now in SMU. And I got myself a hairstyle that is currently hot in the streets now! cant believe it. ok la. it looks disgusting on me. hoohoo.

Huge diff eh?!?! From left: Jan, Bro, Leanne & moi.
Just that...my hair is very chui now. and my complexion is ten times worse.

I get this only ONCE a year. I don't mean Reunion dinner but Home-cooked food. So my friends, be glad that you get to eat your mom's cooking often...

Gotta go prepare my elective's presentation slides. Ugh.

-End of the witch's very random entry-

Labels: random

love, cy

Friday, March 02, 2007

Look through me if you want to.

I want to live.

'A' Level results are out. Well done, bro! (: Congrats to Shanchun and XW as well. Elaine is okay. Don't worry girls, you'll get to go to school! Singapore's education system is flawed. Flawed in the sense that profs fail to realize students like XW who did well in arts subjects even though her rest weren't as good. And then profs rejected her just because of overall grades. Then you make students who actually excel in certain subjects to go through another round just to prove that they have to pass every single subject to get into a Uni. At the end of the day, aren't undergraduates supposed to excel at their personal passions and professions?

Till to date, i cant believe i got into E lit. Thank goodness the present acting dean, Kenneth Chan granted me a chance, the chance where I had a conversation with him in his office rather than an interview. That day after some lit girls attended the HSS ambassador interview, we had a chat...and we found out none of us ever regretted taking this course. Yes there's never ending work and more assignments and readings on top of more assignments and readings...we'll complain, we'll cry, but somehow, we'll all not sleep together the night before the deadline, cheering each other online just to finish the dreaded assignments. What's so good about NTU English division? We work and play like a family. (We=profs, postgrads & undergrads) Not going to say anything more, just in case you think i'm selling my division. (: To find out more, come for open house, exhibitions and talks!

Everyone asks what are you going to do with a lit honors? Teach?? If not, what else?
1. We don't care because we gamble with our passions.
2. There's definitely jobs out there for us. It's whether we want to pursue it or not.
Ever heard of the saying that you might end up taking a job that has certain or of little significance to what you studied?

Eventually, we'll most likely take up a job that we like, just because we go after our passions.
And what if i'm no better in English than others who do not take English lit?

then work my way up! I'm glad Prof Quigley encouraged me that the English language is a technique that can be mastered. This advice really comforted me.

1 year ago, i asked, "Where can I go?" They said "I don't know."
Now, where am i going?
(:

I want to live.

love, cy