That's it man. I'm going to make sure I exercise daily starting from this weekend onwards. My chubs are irritating the hell out of my body and me. And it doesn't do a girl good if her friends agree that she became chubby back in 1 month.
1 freaking mth of stupid work made mi gain stupid weight. Eating rice at 10+pm everyday for dinner. U think I got choice meh? I'm damn sad la.
stupid weight. such a bimbotic entry. but screw you, fats.
love, cy
Chanced upon
I read it in 60 seconds. After, I took it that the story never happened before.
I'm nothing in your eyes. So I tell myself, you weren't that important to begin with.
love, cy
Friday, June 22, 2007
Benbens!
Oooooooooooooo. I love this picture especially coz of the way i look. funny eh! i like my nose (only in photos)! hahaha. I chipped some inches off my hair so it doesn't really look like a lion's mane now. (: but am still waiting for the freaking shorter layers of hair to grow.
ok la. past 2 wks...nothing much happened. Im basically working like a cow for 2 wks, 6 days a wk, 11 hrs a day until end of june. 1 wk more to go! Then i'm freed!!!!!! Will probably be lazing ard, do some reading, reflection...ya da ya da. lament definitely. maybe search for a part-time job. then move on. yes. move on.
work's fine. meeting more ppl, esp regular customers. let me tell u a little secret. I used to get a lil timid whenever I approach an ang moh. but now, i think i learnt to curb it by building up my confidence and talking to strangers. a whole load of ang moh customers. don't call me a racist la. perhaps it's just orientalism. how the east view westerners.
i get customers from ministry of foreign affairs in burma all the way to a manager controlling supermarkets like cold storage, jason's etc. in fact, i must say work's getting better but it's a wk away from 'retirement'. anyhow, am glad that it's been a worthy experience so far.
it's 1 day off for me b4 i venture into my one last wk of working madness. time for a rest. nite peeps!
love, cy
Monday, June 11, 2007
The Night Where David Speaks My Feelings
The convo started off with david telling me he found himself a job and my desperate cry to him to ask his jcrc hall frens for a seat. Then it evolved to the topic on guess what? love.
david - no good deed goes unpunished says: it was a culmination of probs david - no good deed goes unpunished says: but the major one was maybe incompatibilty david - no good deed goes unpunished says: or differences MISS MUSE says: realli ah? or was it miscommunication? david - no good deed goes unpunished says: maybe our thinking is just on diff levels MISS MUSE says: icic.. MISS MUSE says: for mi, i always feel that the diff lvls in thinking can b sorted out thru communication david - no good deed goes unpunished says: yea david - no good deed goes unpunished says: comm helps a lot MISS MUSE says: tt's why i always believe the prob in a r/s is miscommunication. david - no good deed goes unpunished says: u are right david - no good deed goes unpunished says: maybe we dun comm well enuf MISS MUSE says: see. tt's why we study hw111! (I am so idiotic!) MISS MUSE says: hahaha david - no good deed goes unpunished says: hahaha MISS MUSE says: tt stupid mod . . . david - no good deed goes unpunished says: i told her everything, that i would change given enough time that things can only get better david - no good deed goes unpunished says: but for every hope i tried to bring out she just snuffed it david - no good deed goes unpunished says: now i am just so numb and incoherent david - no good deed goes unpunished says: i dun believe good things can happen again in a r/s MISS MUSE says: haha. u know tt's how i feel now too MISS MUSE says: but try not to let these ppl get the worse of us MISS MUSE says: not worth david - no good deed goes unpunished says: when things are gd things are soaring when they are bad it justs jabs u in the heart MISS MUSE says: and bout change, i said the exact thing as u. but u know wad, david, no matter how much u change, i found out i'm still me. (YEAH!!! 'tis so true!) MISS MUSE says: so even if u tried to change for her, it doesn't mean she'll like the way u r. david - no good deed goes unpunished says: u are right that's what she said MISS MUSE says: once i tried to change so much i din know wad i become. david - no good deed goes unpunished says: she said guys will never change MISS MUSE says: so don't change for anyone's sake david - no good deed goes unpunished says: thanks shaun . . . MISS MUSE says: u'll do fine! u're a gd guy. =) david - no good deed goes unpunished says: haha she said the opposite MISS MUSE says: ha. dun believe her la. why believe her words when she doesn't believe u (okay...but aren't you feeling what david is feeling as well?) MISS MUSE says: not worth, david.(yeah, tell me it's not worth.)
If there was one wish someone, anyone could grant me, I wish there will be more love in this red dot. Is this too much to ask for, unhappy citizens?
P.S. I am driving myself sick on this topic so I think I'll stop writing on this specific topic for a wk or so before you go "EH YOU, STOP LAMENTING LAH!" Don't worry lah! That's for now only. haha! Have a great week ahead, my lovers!
love, cy
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Tell Me The End Will Be Happy For Sally
It's near 2am and I'm supposed to have a seniors' camp later on, 830am in a faraway land called boon lay. But I decided to forgo it coz of the f***ing stomach flu i had since 2 days ago. And then I had constipation. And now the stomach flu is back coz I skipped medication at night. Forgoing the camp means that i have 3 days of rest! No work coz seriously, work is giving me aches, pin and paper cuts all over. NO WORK!!!= JOYOUS MINI HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!
Results are back. I'm doing fine. No worries. Showed some improvement. Phew. All the madness at work paid off. I think I got a bad habit. Back in JC, i assumed lit to be my best sub but it was one of the worse. And now, I assumed my ADM elective to be the best but it was considered the worst as compared to others. Prof Davis gave mi false hope coz my 1st presentation was an A and I wasn't sure bout the 2nd one but she told me i did well. Well...or maybe i went wrong somewhere in the exam by repeating one of the paintings in another qns. ahhh. heck. it's over! I'm glad. Will continue to climb up the ladder...
And so now I'm thinking if I should pursue French lvl 2. what say u?
I have a story to share. Yes-all of a sudden, but pardon me. Once, Chris and Sally were lovers. But they broke up due to miscommunication which Sally believed in and difference in personalities which Chris believed in. Sally did not want this decision but she had no choice. Till this day, she remembered the last words she whispered to herself every night before the break up-"Don't Expect Anything In Return". She struggled with this truth that she never wanted to believe in and fell sick for a long long time. Chris went missing. Sally met Alan and thought he was the one for her. But no, heaven played a trick on Sally. Sally became really pessimistic after what had happened. But later on, she started to talk to Chris again. They became friends. One day, Chris told Sally that he hopes that their level of friendship will climb higher. So Sally tried to start talking more to him. It was not easy but she gathered her courage to ask him out for dinner. But the timing and reply was too late. On another occasion, she decided to ask her friends and Chris out for dinner. But Chris couldn't make it. And Chris didn't tell her because he didn't know how to break this news. When Sally found out that she wasn't informed all along, she flew into a rage. It was tough enough for Sally to gather courage to initiate the talks but this effort does not seemed to be enough for Chris. Then, when she felt better, she thought something wasn't right. Is Sally treating Chris the way they were as lovers before? Or is Sally frustrated because Chris is expecting something from her but he is taking her for granted? Sally knows Chris is silently watching her, but for reasons she does not know. What does Chris want from Sally really? All Sally knows is that she isn't that noble after all. She could not not expect anything in return. She's just an imperfect perfectionist.
love, cy
Saturday, June 02, 2007
报告平安！
What's the feeling of not accessing the net for half a mth? Weird, but kind of cool at the same time. It seems like everything has suddenly took a U turn back to the 90's and become realistic and simple.
I couldn't blog or go online coz I'm staying at my grandpa's place in pasir ris now and it doesn't have internet connection. I tried going to Mcdonald's in Elias Mall but the connection was under repair. So I'm especially sorry to those who have been waiting for my entry and reply!
Work's been tiring but fun coz I get to learn how to deal with customers and gain knowledge of fabrics inside out. The private sale which attracted a hell lot of regular customers' been crazy, and a lot of professors actually buy Figaret's tops (e.g. Prof Jon London). Millenia Walk's customers are tough to deal with, including lunatics as well. So if you go to MW in the future, don't think that the salespeople have nothing to do down there. They are the ones that are dealing with a bunch of demanding & mad customers.
Social life's been good. The stay at pasir ris provides me a little more relaxation, plus I've been spending more time with my maternal relatives, so that's a bonus for me. Sometimes, when life gets tough, just play with ur lil cousin. An innocent and shy smile from him/her will do wonders.
There are still some things and thoughts unsolved. But I'll leave my willpower to direct my mind and search for answers.
